I watched a movie yesterday and in the scene, one of the
characters said “Trust goes both ways”. I think it is true. I myself have been
thinking lately about trust because I probably have a big trust issues to men
(literally, especially). Being born in a broken family where my dad had broken
our trust, it is especially hard for me to trust a man. Do not get me wrong, I
have a lot of guys’ friends, and two brothers. I can trust them easily, but
when it comes to a romantic relationship. It is another stage and a big
mountain to climb for me.
I had some relationships in the past, none of them I could
find trustful. From that I learned it is actually really hard to be honest and
selfless in this fallen world when temptation just comes from all the areas in
life. Not only from the secular temptation but even amongst the Christians
community itself, further more even in the midst of us who called ourselves a
believer. People fall into temptation, and when that happens trust is hard to
regain or even restore. That is when the relationship broken.
We can’t never trust human completely, we are all flawed.
Putting trust in God is the only way. Especially when someone betrays our
hearts with their short fallen. Human relationship is a complicated thing and
when it is broken, the evil uses it to break our divine relationship with or
without us realizing it. When human’s trust is broken, our tendency is not to
trust God anymore by one of the other thoughts that we put blame on God in
letting people broke our trust and heart. I have seen it happening it a lot in
people, even with my mom. It took her years to be able to trust God again after
her trust to my dad being broken.
A lot of young people left their standards or church because
their trust was being broken by human relationship. I know what they felt when
they decided to walk away, I had my trust being broken in my life. I questioned
God, confused with the situation, wondered why He let that happened in the
first place. Wondering if I could I trust Him to take care of my heart. If He
can, so why He let the heart being broken by the trust given?
We are left with so many questions in a lot of things in
life. No, we can’t completely trust a man, because we betray one another in so
many ways, everyday. But, I do trust that we can still trust God even when our
trust is being broken by the others. We can always trust Him to take care of
the broken things.
It is not God we can’t trust, but it is ourselves, and our
sinful desires and selfishness. We don’t understand most of things that happen
in our life, but our part is not to understand them all. Our part is to trust
God and to love the others no matter what, even when they break our trust
because God also still loves us no matter what, even when we break His heart
every day. Trust me, it is not easy, that is why we have to learn to trust Him
every day in all situations, and we will not find ourselves put our trust in
the wrong place.
